Ramblings of one tired mama. =)

I have NO idea where to even start. I have left ya'll in the dark about so much lately. I've been so busy, tired, worried, to even want to blog. I figured since I have some time to kill that I might as well get ya'll up to date.

Well, we had Jayden's 6 month well baby check out at the end of March. It was a tad scary. In two months time he only gained half a pound, grew two inches, and his head was measuring small. Although he was performing at a 9 month olds milestones at that time. So that made it easier. He got his shots, which he wasn't none to happy about. The Doctor that did his well baby check up was NOT his normal pediatrician. It was another doctor in the practice. I was not happy with that at all. BUT, she was out on an emergency. Well that doctor couldn't find Jayden's Frontal Soft Spot. SO, they sent us to Phoenix Children's hospital. Well refereed us there.

That was on Thursday the 30th. That weekend, on March 2 (Sunday), we ended up taking Jayden to Pediatric urgent care due to a severe cough, runny nose, and some other issues with his diet and poops. Turns out the pediatrician missed his obvious ear infection and case of bronchiolitis. How nice of him, after he scared me half to death with not being able to find Jayden's soft spot.

In any case we started him on Amoxicillin after my protest because everyone up my dad's blood line is allergic to the penicillin family, including myself who is HIGHLY allergic.  I knew Jayden would be too, it seems to run in the first borns mostly. Well, no surprise he was allergic. But luckily enough his allergic reaction didn't shoe until the antibiotic did it's job and cleared the ear infection. That fixed his diet and he was back to eating as normal.

Then 6 days later a tooth started to pop through, so not only did that mess with his sleep, but you got it, it messed with his eating habits once AGAIN! ugh. I was also sick, bronchitics, so I was also on antibiotics, and that messed with my milk supply BIG time. Why don't they tell you this? I've had to work DOUBLE time and a half basically to even keep up with Jayden's feeding habits, as low as they were from his norm. My milk supply is FINALLY regulating itself back to normal, but it's still a TON of work, and it's still not exactly how it used to be. I am DETERMINED to breast feed until Jayden is 1 year old bare minimum. I want to go for at least 2 years, but will be good with a year and a half.

In any case 4 days after the tooth started to pop through we had his follow up appointment with his regular pediatrician for his recent trip to the urgent care. She also had a hard time finding his frontal soft spot and suggested we go immediately to phoenix children's for tests. She informed me at the same time that she noticed a slight murmur that they don't have recorded and that she has never heard before, and referred us again to phoenix children's hospital to have that checked out as well!

Well, we went down after his appointment to Phoenix Children's, got the ball rolling on his head and heart. Got initial tests done. That Friday we went back to his Cardiology appointment. They did an EKG, that showed the murmur, then an echo and finally a stressor test after they did an exam first. Turns out his murmur even though slightly different than any they have heard before, is normally and typical for his age and development. They classified it as binine and will recheck in one year just a precautionary check up.

That following Monday was his Neurology appointment. After an exam and tests they ran, scans and stuff. They found his soft spot. Small yes, appropriate for his head side, definitely. Not closed, does not need surgery. They are going to be monitoring it however until 9 months, because on the off chance that it closes all the way prior to 9 months he still may need surgery if there is any pressure. I'm certain he will not need it.

 That was our first three weeks of April. The last week as you well know was Easter week and preparation for that. Starting with my training and stuff to work in the children's ministries at church.

Then preparation for Easter, than Easter, and work of course all jumbled up in there, and of course the week before Easter I had finals for the Spring semester! Ekkkk! How do I ever get it all done? lol.

In any case, that's pretty much the "update" Now for some off the wall ramblings. lol.

First I must take a potty break.

So, here's my first lil rant.

3 weeks prior to Scott and Finding out we were pregnant with Jayden, my mom calls me, and says she had a dream that Scott and I were pregnant and it was a boy. But she was mad because she wanted a girl. Well, that night we took a HPT and it was a BFN (Big Fat Negative). In any case didn't think much of it until 3 weeks later. Which was the 8 week mark of my last missed period. SO, we hesitantly and jokingly took another HPT. Turns out my mom was right. I was pregnant. 10 weeks later we found out that He was in fact a he. The rest is history.

Today while having Easter with my mother, she says she had another dream. That was pregnant and this time it was a girl. Well, we just took a HPT two days ago and got a BFN, who knows maybe in 3 weeks we will have a BFP and 10 weeks from them may know if "she" is a "she" or a "he".

This is odd, because I have been feeling "odd" like I did prior to knowing I was pregnant. I knew something was not "right" but I didn't think pregnant. I'm having some of the same "feelings" as before. Who knows, maybe history will repeat itself. Which is one part of history I wouldn't mind repeating, I just pray that this pregnancy is MUCH better than the last. PLEASE no horrible all the time, all day, right up until I give birth morning sickness. I can't go through that again! We shall see, all we can do is wait.

Next subject.

I have a few friends on my friends list that really irritate me. They constantly (I'm talking multiple times a day, and day in and day out.) post STUPID things about "Wanting to find the one" "Heart broken he/she wasn't the one" And various other ways of putting it. Like clock work. All day, every day. Now don't get me wrong, I've been there and done that. I have even shared some very personal stuff and aired some very personal laundry before. I learned my lesson the hard way. SO I get it. It's just annoying to see. I wish people would think before they post, me included sometimes.

ALSO, it truly amazes me how many people are "suddenly" Christian at or around Holidays. Truly amazes me. I'm not saying you have to go to church to be a believer, I'm not preaching or anything, but I think people who do not walk with the Lord SOME WAY SOME HOW through out the ENTIRE year and are self proclaimed Atheists shouldn't be going to and saying "be blessed". I'm not trying to be a hypocritical, or judge, or whatever. I'm just saying if you are known to be vulgar all year long except on holiday's then why even try on the holiday's? I hope it's the work of the Holy Spirit working in and through them. I truly do. But sometimes I wonder what goes through some people's heads. (I wont go into more detail than that. If you are interested send me a private message.)

NEXT thing.

I was blessed in a HUGE way this week. I have been worring and praying about how to clean out my closet and get a new wardrobe. I have started my own professional business and needed a wardrobe that not only FITS but is also professional! See all my clothing are "pre pregnancy" clothing that is TOO SMALL, or "pregnancy" clothing that is TOO BIG! Well, my MIL(Mother in law)'s SIL (Sister in Law) was running her own second hand clothing store, which she recently shut down. She called all the family and said come shop for free. She said take as much or as little as you want. If it fits and you like/want it take it. I walked away with over a 1000 dollars in TOP Of the line clothing. (Resale price not actual whole sell price).

OMG! Now not only do I have good summer clothing, some winter/fall, but I have good professionally clothing and it ALL FITS! YAY! I'm a truly blessed, and it is truly an answered prayer from God!

Next thing.

The GOD we serve, is TRULY an amazing God. He made the mountains move in order for Scott, Jayden and I to have a home to call our own. To be home owners. Although we don't know the details for sure, we pretty  much know it's ours. We are waiting for things to work out. I know God will work them out. I am confident about that. We should know shortly if it's gonna happen or not. If not, we have a few other things in the works as well, so I'm not worried. It's gonna happen, and happen soon! I can feel it!

A lot of good things are happening in the Morganroth home! I'm excited about them all! I love seeing God work in us and in our lives, and directing us to Live for him. Hubby and I just finished the Love and Respect Seminar at our church and we have seen our marriage grow!

Slowly but surly as we work harder towards God, God works harder for us! What an Awesome God we have. I'm blessed to know Him as Father, Savior, Friend, Provider, Rock and so much more. Thank you Lord, all the praise and glory goes to you!

OH, updates on baby boy that I forgot.

He is crawling EVERY WHERE. He is pulling and climbing onto EVERYTHING. He has one tooth half way up, and his second tooth is starting to break through his gums. He's "assisted" walking somewhat. walks in his walker, and then he was a push toy he walks behind. He's loving it! He follows me around the house, is doing great in the church nursery. And is having some mommy separation anxiety lately. =( Hopefully it passes soon.

We have stopped with the CIO method for now, and gone back to the cuddles/nurse/rock method for bed time after his bath. Maybe we will revisit later. Not now.

We have started some discipline things, to get him to understand No, and that he can't go where he is not allowed to, or get into things he's not allowed to. It's about 50/50 right now.

He has said mama twice, that we think, and not again. He says dada A LOT. And he sort of says "I love you" So cute.

That's about all! Goodnight all!

Concerned mama looking for advice and prayers please!

So my lil stink weed has been growing and eating, and really taking off. (He's 6.5 months this week.) We had to start him on solids at 4 months due to his severe reflux, that even the strongest script couldn't help with. They did everything from allergy tests, nothing came back, negative for all allergies. They did an abdominal u/s to rule out pyloric stenosis. It wasn't that. He's a nursing champ. (Breastfeed.) 

Well, this last month he has basically quit eating nearly as much. He hasn't wanted to nurse nearly as much. We thought, meh, just a slow time from him. He looked and seemed as if he was chucking up and growing. 
So imagine my surprise, when we take him in for his 6 month check up this past Thursday only to be told that in 2 months he put on half a pound. HALF A POUND! He grew 3.5 inches taller! I was devasated. I asked the doc if there was a reason for the lack of weight gain? (By the way, it wasn't our normal pedi, she was on an emergency, so we got stuck with some other dufus for his appointment.) The doc told me no. BUT THEN, tells me that after looking at his chart and growth pattern, it is some what alarming since he had been putting on any where from 2-4 pounds a month. But, it could probally be explained by eating solids. It left me very unsure, and concerned. Typically for height he has been in the 98th percentile, and for weight he has been in the 65th-70th percentile. This appointment he was only in the 40th percentile for weight. His height is just fine for his growth pattern.
This pedi continued to check Jayden out. He said his head is measuring rather small. In fact as he continued, he said that he couldn't find his soft spots. ????? I asked as many questions as I could, such as could it be else where on his head? Just what ever I could think of. He then says, he will give the chart to Frakes (Jayden'sactual Pedi) When she gets back on the following Monday (Yesterday). He proceeded to tell me that in some cases the frontel lobes where the bones meet sometimes close early, and will require surgery to reopen them to allow for growth. He acted so nonchalant about it. You don't act like that to a first time mother, who you just made concerned about her childs weight gain? Come on, seriously?
In any case, Jayden started getting a bad cough Friday Morning (The day after his doctors appointment) He really didn't want to have anything to do with any food, including nursing. He wasn't sleeping nearly AT all. Maybe 30 mins here and there, all day and night. Something told me that something was seriously wrong. Even though the Doc assured me he seemed healthy. I almost didn't take him in and passed it off as side affects from his shots on Thursday. I waited to see what was going to happen with his cough and eating habits. Sunday I decided to take him to a Pediatric Urgent care.
The nurses and Doctors almost didn't believe me that something was wrong because of how well tempered he was. That he was happy, smiling and playing with his toys, grandma and me. (My MIL went with me, since she's a nurse). Come to find out, he has bronchiolitis, and an ear infection. That doctor there proceded to tell me that I should have brought him in sooner, like when he started not sleeping through the nights, and when he started to not eat (Which was roughly 4 weeks ago.) What gets me is the doc on Thursday checked his ears and said they were fine. WTH? Obviously they weren't. 

My poor son is now on breathing treatments, and penicillin. Which I'm highly allergic to it, it can't even touch my skin. Great. 

In any case, Monday, I was coughing so bad, and sick to my stomach, I knew I was sick. I probably had what my son has. So I went to urgent care. Sure enough same thing. So now I'm on antibiotics as well. 

Today, I got an unexpected phone call from Dr Frakes(Jayden's Actual Pedi). She said she got Jayden's charts from the other doc and the report from the urgent care center. I told her everything. I was in tears at the end. I'm so overwhelmed. She is so awesome. She calmed me down. We are taking Jayden to see her Wednesday Next week, since this Wednesday is my appointment day all day, ob, dentist and optometry appointments for me. She is going to thoroughly check Jayden out head to toe, she said she will not let me leave without answers, support and a plan to fix things. For precautionary measures, she is referring us to Phoenix Children's Hospital for a head CT, that SAME day so right after his appointment we are going there, just to make sure. IF for some reason they have closed she is scheduling the surgery for that Saturday. Which some what makes me feel better, but also makes me nervous. =( She has already secured a time and the best doctor on the west coast for Jayden's Surgery. He is the same Pediatric neurosurgeon that my MIL worked with while she was in Peds back in her early nursing days. She highly recommends him as well. That is very comforting. 

I'm sorry this is so long. I'm just so overwhelmed and so concerned and worried about my baby boy. He's my first. He's our lil miracle. 
By the way, since he's been on breathing treatments and the penicillin for 3 days now, he's eating much better, which makes me feel so much better! He ate more than he normally does today. 


Sorry I haven't blogged much lately. It's been stressful month. Busy too. And Jayden and I have been on again off again sick for the last month.