8 Hours post op...

I am now 8 hours post op.

I am feeling pretty fair actually. I can't tell you how amazing it already feels not to have the pain and pressure of my wisdom teeth baring down on my other teeth, but it does! I'm so thankful that the surgery went smoothing and without incident. I can say that I have been staying on top of my pain control, so I'm not sure exactly how painful it is. But so far I can say that it is way less painful than before while the wisdom teeth were still in.

I have pumped twice now to dreadfully dump it, due to being knocked out for surgery and the pain meds. The first pump and dump was nearly 16 ozs. The second was about 10 ozs. =( It makes me so upset and sad to dump so much milk. But I know it's not good for Zechariah to have, thankfully I make plenty of milk and have a stash of over 200 ozs already pumped. My chunky monkey will not go hungry. Luckily I will only have to pump and dump for 24 hours, as long as I will not have to increase my pain meds.

Ironically the pain itself from my teeth did not finally wake me up, it was the pain from my very full breasts that woke me up. So I pumped, ate some pudding/jello and drank some water and soda. Since then I have been able to eat a bowl of soup and keep it down and drink some more. The soda is keeping me from being too nauseated.

I am so sleepy and tired and would love to go back to sleep, however, I'm finding that I want to be awake to spend time with my two boys. My dad and husband took the day off to help me with the boys, and I am grateful for that. I think I may take a shower and then go back to sleep here in a bit. I will have to pump and dump again in about 30ish mins, I'm starting to get full again.

Other than that, my throat is extremely dry and I'm thirsty as all get out, so I'm trying to keep drinking water and some soda. It's starting to help. The broth from the soup helped a bit as well.

If I am not in too much pain I will be going to the gym tomorrow night. So I will share some before pictures to share my healthy change with everyone. My doc said I have some good strong stomach muscles, and since I did not gain a whole lot of weight (Thanks to my severe morning sickness with both boys) my stomach muscles did not tear or stretch out nearly as bad as most. So I'm hopeful to see some nice tone in my abdomen.

Only two "side affects" I am experiencing is I am rather warm, like extremely warm from taking the antibiotic (which I knew would happen), and I can feel one of the stitches with my tongue. Its a little annoying, but I am making sure not to allow my tongue to tug at it, or mess with it. Which by the way is a lot harder than you could imagine.

I got to my appointment and was already almost knocking out due to the pre op meds I had to take at 530 this morning. So it made everything else feel and go smoothly. I was called back, they got me ready. Hooked me up to all of the monitors; heart, bp, oxygen, etc, as well as my IV. They gave me the nose oxygen and then administered the knock out drugs. The last thing I remember is talking to the nurse about my two babies, and she commenting how good I look for 3 weeks PP! =) Feels good when someone comments on that!

I honestly do not remember anything after that, other than waking up at home when I needed to pump. I guess some how I walked myself from the wheel chair to the car, and then again from the car to my bedroom when we got home, with Scott's help of course. But I honestly can not remember doing that. lol.

Scott and my dad have told me that Jayden has been a very good boy today, and a huge help with little brother. Poor kiddos. Both have runny and stuffy noses. =( We are combating Jayden's with children's cold medicine (low dose per pedi) and some children's mucus meds, as well as nice warm showers/baths with Epsom salt and a nose suction every couple of hours. For poor Zechariah we just can give him warm Epsom salt baths and suck his nose every couple of hours. He's too young for children's medicines. They both seem to be doing a little bit better today, which is good. Hopefully I've been able to nip this in the butt before it starts. I truly hope they take after their mama, and only get sick on a very rare occasion and when they do, it's nothing more than a 2 hour bug.

In any case, I'm starting to feel very drowsy now. I think I'm gonna attempt to lay back down and sleep. Have a good day everyone!

The funny journey of Jayden: 20 month old All Boy Toddler

So I thought it would be funny to share how my Jayden boy is growing up right before our eyes!

Here are a few funny things that he has recently done and learned.

Jayden knows that moms boobs are to fed brother. He knows that mommy fed him the same way. How do you explain to him that this milk is for brother now? He wants to nurse again. I don't want him to regress so I keep telling him to follow me to get him a big boy sippy with milk in it. That typically is fair enough for him.

Well today I was nursing Zechariah. Jayden climbs up next to me and pats my boob and exclaims, "Boob. Boob for brada (brother)." I laughed and said, "Yes, boob milk for brother."

Well when Zechariah finished nursing, I waited for him to finish pooping. When he did I changed his diaper. He was laying in front of me as I finished up when Jayden came up and patted Zechariah on his diaper and said, "Pee Pee. Babe (baby) pee pee?" I responded and said, "Yes baby brother pee peed and ewws." (Ewwws is our term for poop since Jayden is potty training and that's wat he says when he's about to poop, is pooping or just pooped.) He then goes, "No mama. Brada's wee wee." Then he patted his own diaper. It became apparent he was trying to say wee wee the second time, when I miss took it for pee pee the first time. (We tell Jayden during his diaper changes and sucessful potty runs that we have to clean his wee wee. Lol.) I chuckled and said, "Yes Jay, brother has a wee wee like you. You can not play with brothers wee wee. Only your own when you are older." Lol.

My dad was sitting on the coach. Jayden runs over to papa and exclaims, "papa, wee wee!" As he um, trys and pats papas wee wee. Lol. I died laughing.

We have been teaching Jayden body parts. We didn't teach him wee wee out right. He's picked it up during his potty times and diaper changes. So that's why it makes it even funnier.

Later on tonight I had just finished nursing Zechariah again. Jayden has his Laugh and Learn doggy he drags EVERYWHERE with him. Its his security "blanket". (Anyone know how to clean those things?) Anyways, he has recently been mimicing me with his "doggy". Everything from the way I carry Zechariah to wiping his bottom during a diaper change and putting him in the swing.

Jayden kept putting doggy in the swing, like how we do with Zechariah. He gave him a gentle push. Anytime he was going somewhere he went and got doggy so carefully out of the swing. It was sooooo cute.

I asked Jayden to get me the wipes and a diaper for brother. He took doggy out of the swing very carefully, then carefully carried him over to where the diapers and wipes are. Handed me the diaper and wipes. Well he wanted to "change doggys diaper" so we let him have a wipe.

It was so cute to watch him wipe doggys bottom, and then attempt to put a diaper on doggy. We helped him. So doggy has a "clean" diaper and is sitting in Jaydens lap as he "feeds" him his night snack. Its too cute!

My baby boy is growing up!!!!!! And it is so bitter sweet and adoreable! =)

Our New Healthy Lifestyle change.....

So many of you know my mother's condition. Many know just how bleak it is becoming. Her condition has had a number of emotions run through me; ranging from sadness, to anger, and every stop in between. In dealing with these emotions, and feelings it has opened my eyes to a few things. One of those things is that I never take time out for myself, nor do I do anything special for myself. I have always put the needs, wants and desires of my loved ones ahead of mine. I have always gone without the things I "need" and want for myself to get the things that my love ones need and want. So I decided that I need to make myself healthy and fit mind, body, soul and spirit to enable me to be a better wife and mother to all 3 of my boys. My Mother's condition made me take a step back and make some decisions for myself.

So in addition to being involved and active in my church (Which feeds my soul) I have decided to do things that feed my body, mind and soul.

To feed my mind I have `already been in school to finish up school. I will continue that course to fed my mind.

To feed my soul I have decided to take a mommy only day once a month, where I can get a mani and pedi done, have a hair appointment if I need/want to, and a massage and facial at the day spa.

To feed my body I have joined a local gym that offers plenty of classes with my membership including a meal plan and workout regiment to keep a toned body.

Of course I will continue my usual routine of keeping up with all of the appointments for my children and husband including for myself. Dental and family doctors. I want no surprises. I want to keep us all healthy.

Hubs and I have implemented date night every other weekend. Part of a healthy family and life, is a healthy marriage. We will of course keep with Sunday's being our family day. Where we attend church, and do a family outing on Sundays.

I want to live a long life to enjoy my boys and one day their children, and if I'm lucky maybe enjoy me some great grandchildren. =)

I want to be able to do this with agility, and fragility. I don't want to be stuck in a wheel chair, or confined to a home because I need machines keeping me alive. So to ensure that I don't end up that way, I have to take care of me in every aspect so I can properly care for my husband and children. Not to mention in order for us to get our boys to play sports and be in music and whatever else, we have to lead by example. I can't tell them to go play a sport if I'm not being active myself.

Although these changes seem like they are slightly vain to some, I can assure you they are not. They  are to ensure that I am healthy and fit 100% in every part of life.

I already cook good well balanced meals, and have good well balanced snacks. I of course have some "junk" food because in moderation we all need a little sugar, salt, and fats. However for the most part, this family primarily would resolve to have a fruit or veggie over chocolate and chips.

We have started with mini toddler lessons with Jayden to get him ready for pre school and eventually kindergarten. Due to Jayden being our first born, and a boy who will be less than 5 when kindergarten starts (by like 14 days or something like that), we have decided we will do 2 full years of pre school to ensure that when we have him tested into kindergarten early, that he is ready. I don't foresee any issues. He has adjusted well to being in the 2 year old classroom at church since we have moved him up from the nursery. He does very well. He behaves, listens, and enjoys the lessons and activities. I think he got mama's love of learning and growing. =)

Jayden seems to love learning and coloring his alphabet letters with me. He is a very smart kind, and well ahead of his peers. For that I am thankful and excited about!

Zechariah is growing so fast. He is most definitely our chunky monkey boy. I can't believe how fast both of my boys are growing up!

So here I start my journey. On Monday I go to the gym for my initial weigh in and game plan. In the meantime I get to just check out the gym and play around to my desire. =) I will share my journey with you as I take it.

I'm going to be bold and post all the facts.

As of right now, when I was weighed at my doctors appointment yesterday I weighted 153. So not bad for being 3 weeks pp. I would like to be down between 125-130. So hopefully I can make it to that. I realize that muscle weight weighs more, but I don't want to be buff, I just want to be toned and healthy.

Well that's about it for now. Until next entry, have a good night! I'm watching Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows Part 2 with my husband, watching Jayden re arrange our living room with his toddler furniture, and making lean tacos for dinner tonight. I'm making my own refried beans, lean taco meat, and grilling some of our toppings. =) So until next time have a wonderful night.