So month 2 of my Fit and Healthy Mommy Journey. So far it has been slightly slow. I have been recuperating from oral surgery, having Zechariah a little over a month ago, adjusting to two children, returning to the swing of things at church and returning to work. I'm hoping that month 2 will yield me more results now that I seem to have a system down.
Above are two photos. A frontal view and a side view. As you can see, it is not that bad. I would really like to tone and firm some areas up. So, here goes my initial stats (ekkkk, can NOT believe that I am admitting to these stats, oh gosh....) 149lbs (in my defense I had full tatas. At weight in it was nearing time for me to pump or feed Zech. lol. Hey now, it's my story and I'm sticking to it.) And my body fat was 16%, which is not good, but it's not bad. So Monday I will sit down with my trainer and devise goals, and a plan to get me to goal and maintain goal. Thursday night however is Zumba again! He wants me to start with two cardio workouts a week, to help build back up my endurance. I am SOOOOO OUT OF SHAPE, that it is not even funny.
Tonight I did Body Attack, and OMG, I thought I was going to die! It's SUCH an intense workout. It's almost a cross of Zumba and Taboo. SOOOOOO intense. I'm already feeling it in my arms and legs. Feel the burn baby, feel the burn. lol. Other than my heart pounding and screaming while trying to escape my chest, it was a good work out. It actually felt great!
I did however, accomplish a lot of other things on the list towards becoming a better fit and healthy mommy this last month. I saw my OB/GYN for my 6 week PP check up this last Friday, all went well. Everything went well there. Well, mostly well. There is still only 1 lingering issue to deal with. My BP was still higher than normal. =( It was 132/93 which isn't "that" high, but definitely higher than my "normal". My normal before my pregnancy with Zechariah was 98/67, so you can see why it's still some what concerning. So she knew I had my appointment the following Monday with my family practitioner, so she sent my records to her office, and would go with my family practitioners recommendations.
On Monday I saw my family practitioner. Outside of the normal check up, only a few concerns. One of course being my bp. It was 130/90 on Monday, so slightly lower, but still higher than "normal". She ordered me a daily bp monitoring kit. She wants me to monitor my BP every day for a month. Record it, and every Friday bring it into her office. I'm to check and record my bp 3 times a day. Which when she checked my heart it sounded enlarged to her, however, she feels like it is due to my high blood pressure. So that's why she wants me to monitor it for a month, and she will re check my heart at that point. If there is no change she is going to send me to the same heart doctor that Scott was referred to.
My in office thyroid test came back slightly low. So she is sending me to have a full blood panel done for my thyroids. Doesn't surprise me. =( Thyroid and heart issues, along with blood pressure and diabetes run in my family. Hopefully it is not something substantially wrong, and just a fleeting moment or faulty test. So we shall see.
I also had my check up from the oral surgeon from my oral surgery. Everything is healing perfectly fine! So thank you for all of the prayers and good vibes for a speedy fast, and un eventful recovery. Seems to be that I am recovering just fine.
I also checked my spirital well being this month as well. In adition to dedicating Zechariah to the LORD, I also took a huge step forward with our womens ministries and asked for help, guidence, and prayer. I guess since I'm being open with my church family and with my very close friends, might as well be frank with the rest of the world.
I LOVE working. Not only is it an additional income that helps sustain a living for my husband and our family. I LOVE having the freedom and independence of working. I love being able to socialize at work. I have worked my entire teenage and adult life. So for me not to work, it doesn't feel natural. However, lately I've been hearing God giving me a "new calling". One that I'm not totally prepared for. One that I'm not sure I can do or fill as well as co-provider.
I have this deep desire, and want to suddenly become a stay at home mom full time. I want to foster the growth, learning and development of my children. I don't want to miss a single after school activity or sports event. It's a feeling that keeps growing and growing inside of me. I tried the "stay at home mom" gig for a short 4 months after having Jayden. It just didn't work for me. I was SOOO bored, and I hated it. Scott and I had many issues. Mostly because I was so bored, and it was so hard to find or do anything within budget of a one income family. I enjoy the freedom and flexibility of a two income family. We would have to really sit down and completely re arrange our finances, and re set our budgets if I were to become a stay at home mom. I am NOT sure what God is wanting from me at this point. I'm waiting on Him before I make a decision and commit to it. It's a very real, and difficult struggle inside I am having. I'm having a rough time working through it. That's why I went to my church family. So my spiritual well being is wonderful, aside from this delima I am seeming to have.
Beautiful momma is in full swing. Full Pedi done. Eye brows done, and next week I have a massage appointment. =) This is by far my favorite and most difficult part of my journey. It's obvious as to why it is my favorite, but not so obvious why it is so difficult. It's hard for me to spend any kind of money, attention, or detail to myself and my appearance. It's NOT something I can easily do. I'm working through it, with some help of course! I am really trying to enjoy it. So far I have learned about myself is, I miss writing, and reading. I LOVE to read and write. I also have lost my desire for photography, and it's because I have lost my desire for myself. So because I want my photography to flourish, I am looking for my beauty, in every way. I know that may NOT make sense to some, but if you want I could try and explain it. It is my hope that ONE day, my photography can be a large supplement to our income for our family, because it is flexible and I can have my boys right there with me. =)
Well that's about it for now. I'm going to go enjoy some snuggle time with my wonderful husband. Good night ya'll.
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