Tanget of Sorts.

As Christians, we are called to love one another. We are called to treat our neighbor as ourselves. We are called to do so many things, that so many people, including myself, forget to do. Which is frustrating. 


I despise organized religion. I truly do. I thought I could escape the trechories in a non denominational church. Truth is, you can never FULLY escape it, because we are human; by design to mess up, to sin.


A church, (To keep it simple, and to keep names out of it), that Scott and I used to attend, makes me angry to the max.


Sure, we don't live in a bubble. We don't have the flashy cars or perhaps the biggest flashy home, or that ideal flashy job. BUT WE ARE OKAY WITH THAT. WE DON'T MIND IT AT ALL, because we are perfectly happy. Good for you that you have the perfect american dream, in the "perfect" order. Want a cookie? Who gives a crud?


God, and God alone designed OUR lives before we were born into this world. HE KNOWS what paths we are taking, and what ones we have to take. So how is it fair to say YOUR life is better than mine, even if it took 11 years for us, even if it took doing it "backwards" in your view? WHO the heck are you to tell us we did it wrong or outside of God's will? Really? Because you are in our hearts? You are in God's Mind and knows his great design? Last time I checked the bible is FULL of sinners and God still loves them, and took them to the Promise land. How am I any different?


So you are probably wondering what the heck this little tanget or tiff is about. 


Well, Scott and I had been going to this church that I spoke about above, for about two years. 


They did nothing but try and destroy us. Told us we were living in a sinners world, that we wouldn't be blessed and that our relationship wouldn't take flight because of it. We had some issues, what relationship doesn't? They really tried everything they could to separate us. I think they saw me as the devil. See Scott is sort of they type of person that will pretty much believe anything, well, anything in the bible or at church that is. It wasn't until I was like, wait, no, that is wrong. That scripture was used WAY out of context. 


We felt like because we essentially were the ONLY unmarried couple their besides the high school kids, that we were outcasts. 


If I had not stood up for Scott and I, and our relationship, and if I had not stood up for the fact that they were using scriptures incorrectly Scott would still be a mindless drone, hanging on their every move and word. He has since become a little better at taking notes and checking things out for himself in the bible. We actually do it together. 


Anyways, we announced our pregnancy, they shunned us, they didn't even really congratulate us. All they could do was continue to down us, try to separate us, and they went as far as throwing Scott off of the worship team. So we said, goodbye. 


We left church all together. Left it all behind us, and left fate up to God, and put it into his hands. We left God work on us, individually and together. We let God know that he was in charge and we'd accept his Will for us. Which worked WONDERS. Scott and I grew closer, loved deeper, and our life has since been fulfilled to the millionth degree.


What makes me mad is all of this put together. Scott's supposive "best friend" (Whole other story wont get on that tonight) the new drummer, who is married, and now they are expecting. What did that church do? They showered them with LOTS of Congratulations, whop la, even did it on fb, and their webpage. 


So because they fit the image of picture perfect, and did EVERYTHING right and in the right order, or so they have the church believing, they get to be a part of the "club", but because Scott and I didn't, we are exiled, to exile island. 


Am I wrong to be upset? We thought these people were our friends, were our brothers and sisters in Christ. Were TRUE Christians. They honestly believe they did the right thing, said the right things. They stand by it. Good for them. But how do they know God's will's? How do they know God's designs? 


So celebrate one couple's pregnancy because they did everything by the "book" and shun another's because they didn't? Hmmm, call me crazy, that doesn't sound very Christ-like to me. 


I know I really shouldn't bare any mind to it, but man, oh man. It's thinks like this that make me wonder who the true evil is? Church itself, and or Religion. 


Thankfully Scott and I found a new church. They know our past, and they love us none the less. They accept us, want us to worship, grow, study, and lead with them. They are accepting, as any Christian should be, to our long history and past. 


Ugh... Is all I can say.


Anyways, sorry for the "tanget" "tiff" whatever you will call it, but I had to get that off my chest before I let it eat me alive.


I'm not done, because I have another evil brewing inside of me, but this is enough for one night. I will have to do the rest later.


As of now, I have to get my "werewolf" son to bed, and hope that the full moon doesn't affect him a second night. Mama needs her sleep! I don't care if it's gas, teeth pains, growing pains, whatever it is, my son, my husband and I all need our rest. Goodnight, and go away full moon.